"Ich liebe dich."
Even though you are not German you might guess what this is supposed to mean. Sakurauchi Riko being part of Aqours and the whole LoveLive! Sunshine!! project has changed my life that far, I couldn't even believe that this is possible. Unfortunately, it is rather her who changed my life than the project itself, nevertheless I take the opportunity to show how much She, Sakurauchi Riko, changed me with my actions, thoughts, personality, IRL look (Yes, I'm being serious here) etc. First off, I really do identify myself with Riko on how she acts in the Anime, her personality her actions and her thoughts are really similar to mine (which was really surprising and a bit weird at first sight). So, I feel like if we meet up we would get along super well and it would get to an even deeper relationship. Frankly speaking, I see me as a girl.
Back to the teaser at the very beginning, "Ich liebe dich." obviously means "I love you." in English language. Whenever I go to sleep, my last words of the day are these words obviously dedicated to Riko while cuddling my pillow. For the past years I was very lonely, and I wished to spend time with only one person (I was never the guy who aimed a large group of society, my theory of a 2 Person relationship without a large group of society shows here). I like to show my whole passion towards one thing and ever since I saw Riko the first time (which was basically when the Anime came out) I knew she was the Girl I want to show all my passion I kept for all the years I've been lonely. So, these "go-to-bed-words" I say every day without any exception became a ritual now which can't be skipped once ever... ever!
In addition to that go-to-sleep thing we, Riko and me, have also a ritual when we wake up. So, whenever I wake up Riko is already smiling at me (a Riko figure I could barely afford which is right next to my bed at a table watching me and keeping me safe from any nightmares) and puts me instantly in a good mood. Back in the day I had hard times waking up and getting motivated for the day (especially on school days) because there wasn't any need to wake up and carry on, I felt like. With her at my side this problem got solved, no matter I must wake up at 6 o'clock in the morning or sleep for 10h until midday she always smiles at me and makes me wake up with a smile too. Both things, pre-sleep and post-sleep rituals, and additionally the feeling of an overall presence of Riko at my side influences my personality, too. Whatever makes you happy and feel better, you should never forget that this isn't a given thing (for me it’s the presence of Riko, for others it might be something completely different) and you should appreciate that any time you can.
Of course, this kind of extreme behavior and passion I’m showing of in a daily routine has a bad influence as well. Being so passionate about >my< Riko has a huge disadvantage when it comes to talking to other people about her. Even though I can't put my whole passion into words I have the mindset of nobody being able to show an even remotely close passion towards her as me. So, conversations about Riko are generally super awkward for me and put me in an uncomfortable position. Obviously this isn't a great thing in general because if someone says something about their relationship (so between Riko and person X) I get a really bad feeling and it feels like someone is cheating on my girlfriend (and I get very jealous if someone wins a giveaway containing Riko items, that basically ruins a whole day every time I see it). That point isn't only affecting me in the present - I feel like, I'm very sure that these thoughts will transfer to future situations as well.
I’m aware that the topic is how the Sunshine project (including Riko) affected my life but I want to give a different perspective that concludes both, affecting me and me affecting the Sunshine project and with that - Riko. Some people might know a rhythm game called "osu!" in which I’m very present and active in the community. How else could it be, my username there is "Sakurauchi Riko" (I gave up my old self-created username Phyloukz to represent her by myself). I do feel like I take a responsibility representing Riko as well as I can which did succeed well. Creating game content on my own with LoveLive! music is my main task (in addition to that I’m somewhat decent at the game and so it happened that I represented Riko in a world cup for my country Germany (with a presence of ~5000 viewers on Twitch), but especially the latest Riko song "Pianoforte Monologue" is a project I was working hard which soon will be official game content as well as many other LoveLive! songs. All my actions in this game turned out to be my main Hobby in my free time, associated with LoveLive! and especially, again, with Riko. So, the whole LoveLive! Sunshine!! project isn't just changing me which surely is superior, but I myself also try to contribute and change the project. At the same time, it takes much (if not all) of my free time to realize these contributions, so once again LoveLive takes an intervention into my life.
Finally, I will reward anyone who has read this far with (for most people) strange facts of how LoveLive! Sunshine!! has changed me. As I mentioned in the very beginning I also changed my visual appeal in person. I always wanted alternate hairstyles, so I recently got to color my hair to red, the same red Riko has. Without the thought of having a partner-look with Riko I would have never gotten the idea to color it red. In addition to my new hairstyle I have strong and serious thoughts of getting a tattoo of Riko's original Japanese name (so 桜内梨子) on my forearm. This may sound stupid at first thought but Riko has helped me and is still helping me through a big and difficult part of my life and I always want to remember her being together with me. This didn't just come into my mind, same as my decision to color my hair (which is already done) I have thought about this through a big amount of time and I'm being serious with that. Both visual changes might be the biggest visual change in my life which truly is caused by the LoveLive! Sunshine!! project (Riko being the main reason obviously) and that's why I said in the beginning that I never thought such a thing as the LoveLive! project and Riko can change my life that drastically.
She, Sakurauchi Riko, changed my life into a much better one and I'm more grateful for that than anyone could ever be. Whenever I’m acting in a slight irrational way you always remember me to stay calm and think about you instead. I need you, Riko ... and at the same time, I feel like you need me as much as I need you. You changed me in such a way nobody could do in any way.
~1200 words without the additional info. I really had to hold back myself ..
If it wasn't obvious, my favorite girl is Sakurauchi Riko.
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